"Fluttering form the darkness"
You've let me down again,
Clipped my
wings of flight
lift my head off the floor
before I die tonight.
My art is slipping into a dark pool
An over
whelming sadness brought on x3
for breaking God's rule
Rvive me of my dying gasps
so much hardship for a simple
task
Told to be a crew
is now untrue
the beast keeps tearing
But you trio shed what you've
been fakely wearing
Whom
I chose enwrapped in my slumber
let your hands entertwine
as our days number
Nolonger entrapped in an emotional
cave
the bricks over the foot prints
have already been laid
A memory that has made me stronger
will last nolonger
Only
in nightmares in a lesson taught
my demon has been fought
"For the New"
Lavender, to clarity and peace
may my life have
an everlasting feast
Indigo,for the face that haunts
may it nolonger daunt
it's brought to counsel
with the
stars high in the breeze
Instead of again a tear stained pillow
curled to my knees
"And they taught me"
And the godess taught me what love is
and who
a person destoryed by it is
Why does no one understand?
When they claim to be the son of man
Will our children see
another day?
or will the grasslands fall to decay?
All alone in a darkenend room
no one to run to, nowhere to hide
nolonger anyone to confide
anywhere I run
there is a threat to die
at last I wonder why
Rise me up from this forgotten place
where you left me with out
a trace
put a soul in this body so hollow
then to you I will follow
Everytime we get near
we pull back in
fear
Anger falls at my demise
but you I never truely despise
love can detect the faults of epitome
depression
rushes because you let me be
"Through narrow eyes"
My voice has gone unheard
though in my heart
are still important words
wishful thinking to posses the natal talent
to form into writtings
Instead of expressing
again I'll go into hidding
Never again will my hum touch your ears
of loosing love or friendships fears
you can
not contain what you never had
nor can you maintain a relationship gone bad
All things can go abreast
supposedly
it's apart of times test
lifes two narrow roads
emity towards pain is how life goads
blinded to whats behind your
boarders
your narrowed eyes can not see
all sorrow unlocked by a demons key
every sad melody can apply
somethings
in life will never die
"Heaven will save me"
Never again will you touch this broken
heart that took forever to mend
I've blocked my eyes so you can't see
if
I start to bend
despisng the hum of every word thats spoken
the triumph, you will never see as a token
Can't even
hear the words you've earned
that destroy my sanity
bringing me to my knees curssing he
desperately needing to
be revived of this hell
and heavens come to collect its bail
unconditional warmth is broken
the river has met its
end
all your troubles you will have to blend
an antique musical snow played all throught the night
Such as my heart
untill it saw the light
reaching up and grasps the open hand
simple peace comes at demand
"If your eyes could see"
You'll never know my sorrows or my worries of tommorrow
when you look into my eyes and ask what you see
I can't
even tell u whats bothering me
If you really saw whats behind my eyes
you would witness, you would see my soul die
sometimes I wonder why it has to be this way
I wonder how without you I get through the day
If you could see the
depth of my pain
continuous burning like a firey flame
Then you question the way I act
why it looks as if my heart
is black
my cause for this is known, made me cold as stone
I fear that I will be left behind
I was told I am last
in line
Could I trust you with what my thoughts might be?
If only your eyes could see
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waiting patiently for my day to come
anticipating, where the touch is from
the wealth of the heart is a wonderous
thing
is the mure existance of our being
all access of the key
however, nothing comes for free
From the first
to the last of the anguished
arrives as priced, arriving to chastise
chambers are harsh all will be vanquished
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Sickness and despair have been floating through the air
abandoned for companions first kiss
the closeness has
not gone unmissed
ignorance and abuse of fellow youth
always alone in a full room
not yet free from shyness cocoon
the
tears have caused and undying headace
from all the stress of a never ending heartbreak
it isnt fair not to appreciate
such gifts
can only hope for one perfect night of bliss
out on the waters with gental curls
all over the floor
as our gracefulness twirls
communication has broken down
telepathy is now where to be found
"Song for Erica"
Gods eyes see your pain
and will wash it away with the morning rain
untill that day maybe
ever loving friendship
is what you'll see
we will carry you through in our arms
out of darkness bonds harm
let your emotions flow
so
you can beging to let go
even when it seems nothings clear
stay close to those who hold you dear
just understand
that now their gone
live for them as if they live on
remember the days and let the tears fall at bay
love sings
in the air till you have repaired
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Dont want to feel this depression
because of your congression
want it all but into darkness I fall
you are
every thought that enters my mind
the poem I wite everytime
only our ballads of heartbreak and goodbyes
wont let
these tears dry
everytime your let back in
again, a lost soul must begin
values have been shattered
has it at
least mattered?
impendingness has made its divide
would you remember if I died?
each night sticking the sword through
the past
constantly conjuring a new question saying its the last
could it be felt to wake up from a tragic sleep
and
your pillows wet from a pain so deep
this you will never truely know
Please just let me go...
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Can you hear me?
I'm screaming in my burdened home
where I've become so numb
my enitity seeks joy and sees
none
as the colors change my being still reverts to spring
when I thought God had finally caught me under his wing
then
the demon starts his sway
and nights overcome the day
the rose had turned black and is dripping blood
in sync with
my dying flood
"Growing apart"
an unearthly silence broken by monotone words
desperate cries have gone unheard
will the sun ever shine
again?
does time remember when?
if thoughts could be read
the miles could have been saved that were tread
why
does this still exist?
the lingering prescence has been lost in the mist
so sleep a little.. While the tears fall
like an evening rain
maybe the river will end the pain
the deceit and the stones thrown
have caused hate to be
grown
distance blowing against the wind
finding experiences start to blend
"In the darkness"
Take my darkness and bring me into the light
God hears my tears all through the night
May I ask do you sense
my tears?
you are causing all of my fears
Now I'm drowning in your fountains
The curses will count in
Your presence
lingers in my nights slumber
and my heart was caught in the the thunder
the power of the serpant entices
and draws
in left overs of what my life is
tumbling past years hills
will these voids ever be filled?
Heaven has given the
gift of my art
but you have taught my pen where to start
Evanesance describes my lost desires,
how my soul has been
burnt by the fires
Everytime, I hear those words.
I am reminded how a voice has gone unheard
Why is it I still
hunger for your secrets?
Instead of watching the wind blow and forsaking it?
Small demonic wispers on occassion plaque
the room
but mostly the death of noise is staring at the moon
Till again the sunlight touches my skin
the blue
eturnal light captivates and takes me in.
"Riding on the wings of love"
You understand my desolation
and I desire to connect hearts without hesitation
Riding on the wings of the bird
of love
desperate nightly cries have been noticed from above
a radiant light has kissed my lips
the pain of yesterdays
tommorrow now never to be missed
This bird that soars through my mind
it seems you have all the answers I've been
sailing to find
we share eachothers foot prints and forever our fingers have intertwined
together we have broken the
ties that bind
you appreciate this art
with love, God has charcoled you and shot us with his dart
never stop the
blood running through
"Ich Leibe Du" only for you.
"Passion for Angelus"
Bring me to my knees with tears stained
all you have lead me to believe has left me pained
Why did you deceive?
instead
now you've left me with an undying need to grief
a peace of heaven has insipired
all the writtings of ones desire
love has died in lies
burning the binding ties
the fathers vain has devoured your name
devastating in you
splendored shame
striving for improvement never wavers
every word has been savored
if there was a spell to make
love and lies disappear
it would be conjured without fear
"Through the window of the saved"
a faint shimmer in the dark
the
dreams know my mark
your essance is pure
for every ace you are my cure
for every letter you are whom I write
for
every sunrise you gleam in the morning light
Heaven isnt a far off place when I'm with you
the Song of Songs was written
by us two
I am like a crystal in the light
because my glance is enchanted to be in your sight
your voice is a
soft melody
each soft rythm running through me
every imperfection is perfected
with you nothing goes undetected
you are my idol, my savior, each moment I'll savor
"Disfigured"
Do you remember that little girl you left in tears?
Did
you know you brought to life all hear fears?
look at the destroyed inocence
peer into this childs eyes and see how
hatered destroys lifes
children are not born into this world to save the lack of the wise
but to preserve whats been
disfigured by demons knifes
Untiled
Anger rises because of those I despise
Darkness falls at my demise
Everything has been boxed
All the deceit
you have brought
laughing at your attept to bring me down again
was this traitor ever truely a friend?
Now I realize
what a monster you've become
Not the same kindness I knew when first begun
A lost soul looking for compassion
is
now chasing after cheap thrills that will chash in
Thankyou for the memories
may your conscience never be at ease
Being capable of so much more
instead of waiting at sickness door
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So happy now that its faded away
I hope this feeling will stay
Free and strong are all I taste
but like a
wolf in the night
he brings insecurities to my face
this fiend is a friendly antagonist
drawn to things long left
behind
when all eyes can see his shrine
aquaintences are his only savior
conscience thought is overwhelming
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torn between 3 worlds and a 4th unknown
will times true destiny ever be shown?
the face of those who should be
loved
all have flown away on the wings of a dove
all spells cast aside
behind hurt there is nolonger room to hide
still seeing one face in my dreams
that score will forever haunt my life it seems
to a previous time and place
through that portal
sometimes its the only way to remind me that we're still mortal
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All my sin and shame have left me in a cave
in the darkness quietly, wanting to be saved
will we ever look up
to heaven and see the translucent glow?
or the truth we will never know?
Please God give me the words to say
or
the power to let come what bay
when I look up into the blue windows
instead of trust fire is seen and know
the tribulation
has to be near
the hell mouth is here
where are you when I'm screaming?
where are you when I need redeeming?
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Didnt fate warn me it would all fade away
three teeth sunken so deep
(ya didnt finish it yet)
Love and Lies
When I look in your
eyes
I see my heart
As if it was in your
hands.
In your eyes
I see my dreams
My love and my life
Ever little thing you do
Seems to captivate me
Why must it hurt?
Why must I feel like
this?
My heart longs for
Your touch and
Your sweet gentle kiss
Upon my face
In your eyes I see
Nothing but lies
And pain that will pull
away
From the love I once
saw in you eyes.
I didnt write this but I
liked it so much cuz its
how
I feel alot of times. One
of Brittanys friends
Roslyn I think wrote it
"Better than completely miserable"
There is something u need to hear
I changed my world without fear
and I continue hurting everyday
and pray its
face and all the change would fade away
My wings were clipped
and now their slightly burned
I want to shed my tears
but for
another they were already earned
deceived thoughts were spoken
but in a bottle all emotions that are ment
to show go in
No matter how it tries to be left
into the open it is swept
the promises that werent kept
words
that one can never forget
actions that cant be forgiven
because I wasnt forgiven
and now for the new it has spoiled
trust
now it is feared that it is all lust
a creature of the night is now back in its closet
afraid of what its color
will cost it
why is it these ryhms are never written of joy?
Always the pain of a demons toy
a new experiment that
was always there
will have to stay in another layer
after all the games have been played
who would have known on
the savior a foundation is laid
Cant agree on lullabys
Knots formed by a binding tie
on to a new horse to hope
to jump
what would happen if I cant live up to the stunt...
Compromise is better than being alone better than being
completely miserable